Episode Transcript
[00:00:01] Welcome to the Healer's Corner podcast with your hosts, Melissa Wiles and Maria Cerna.
[00:00:09] Hello.
[00:00:11] Good evening.
[00:00:12] It. It feels like forever, even though I just saw you last week, joining us for part three of your story, your wise woman speaks journey. Thank you. Oh, I don't think people realize how intensive, you know, a cancer journey can be, let alone like yours, that it's been a multiple time in your life.
[00:00:39] That persistence.
[00:00:40] Yeah. Yes. And I'm very, very blessed.
[00:00:44] And thank you again, Melissa, for hosting this, because a lot of people have asked and I'm like, okay, I need an outlet. Who do I trust? So it's taken me a while. So thank you because I do trust you to do this and your audience so that we can leave some of what of a legacy about how to get through this. And, you know, I have been told I make it look easy. And Melissa, you said something very prevalent last week that's about. It's not about the suffering. It's about how you live through it.
[00:01:16] And in looking at bringing you up to date on today, I was like, that is so true. Because, you know, when God gives you lemons, just make lemonade. And none of us get out of this alive. We've all come here for some reason to learn some lesson, and it's like, okay, God, next time I'm reading the fine print, however, you just make the life. You try to make the best of it as possible, and you just go on. But last week was. It was a very important thing that you said, and it's stuck with me about how do you journey through life when God gives you lemons? You know, you make lemonade and you make the best of it.
[00:01:53] Because none of us get out of this logic. So we're here just for a short period of time. So get on the horse and ride it and ride it as best as you can. And, you know, sometimes it's not that comfortable to ride it, but you do the best that you can.
[00:02:06] So.
[00:02:07] And that's one of the things we were talking about earlier that I was like, how real to get tonight? So if I have time, I'll share some really real things about some real shit that goes on going through the cancer journey. And I like to say, I didn't have cancer. The tumors did. And the tumors are gone. And some of them are really gone, gone. Like the five that were in my chest, there's like, none.
[00:02:31] So I'm very grateful for that. Because I didn't have cancer. They did and they're gone. So that's how I get through it. Denial. Denial has gotten me through this and I'm very good at denial, so.
[00:02:42] Well, I like that you didn't claim the cancer. And I think that's important in some of the woo woo world that we're in, that words have power.
[00:02:51] So in how you say things, you know, is very important, you know, to say I don't have cancer, the tumors do. You know, one of the things I learned very on is not to say my cancer, because it's not okay. Shall we get started on the third podcast of the series of four and.
[00:03:15] Well, I guess we'll just go ahead and start so we can bring you up to speed. I do want to just reiterate that if you are coming in on this third podcast and have not listened to all of them, that when you get to next week, it's really going to be important for you to have understood my background in terms of how I validated German new medicine because it really blends the woo world and the metaphysical world and the medical world all together because my journey has helped validate that. So the first podcast is my childhood, which is a very important part of my healing through these 27 years. And it, it's that my healing actually validated what German new medicine says. So I would encourage you to go back to listen to that one. And also just to reiterate, what we share here tonight is not an indication of my promoting medicine. It's not an indication. I'm not promoting medicine. I'm not promoting German new medicine. I'm not promoting anything that I told you I take. I'm simply here to tell you my journey. If it resonates with you, great. You can reach out to Melissa, she can get you in touch with me. You can reach out to me. I'm simply here to tell you my story because by the grace of God, this has been a 27 year journey. My, my experience has been totally life changing. And I, as I sit before you 27 years later, having done the intense journal internal work, I'm really, truly in the happiest time of my life and at the most peaceful time of my life, internally and in balance, learning to be instead of doing. Because I spent my whole life doing, which was explained in the first podcast.
[00:04:58] So just wanted to summarize all that and to give you a summary of where we're going. In 2000, I had my double mastectomy in January, I was on tamoxifen for three months and I said no more of that because my leg cramps were the worst leg cramps I've ever had. And I said, not taking this. And the people in my world that I knew that were on Tamoxifen, I'm not saying there's any correlation. In my little world, the two women that had breast cancer that took tamoxifen shortly thereafter died of liver cancer. And I said, nah, that's nah, nah, my little world, not doing it.
[00:05:34] So Fast forward to 2014. During that period of time, the first five years, I was religious about all my supplements that I took. And I can give you a list of them. I'm going to get to a list. So, you know some of what I did.
[00:05:50] I also began to change from a very corporate world back to my little spiritual soul at the age of 18 months was talking to baby Jesus.
[00:06:01] That all came back. So I was shifting out of the corporate world into a spiritual world. And I retired in 2009. My mother died in 2006.
[00:06:10] In 2014, as I was shifting into the spiritual world, that's when I had the second bout with cancer, when my father's voice appeared to me.
[00:06:19] And at that point it was in my lymph node.
[00:06:22] And I was given chemotherapy. I was given four rounds of Adriamycin and I was given four rounds of Taxol. And I will tell you if anybody. I'm telling you right now, if you're scheduled for tax, I'm not telling you not to do it. I'm not telling you to do it, but if you're taking Taxol, be prepared. I felt like a Mack truck had run over me and every single bone in my body was, like, broken. But it wasn't broken. And interestingly enough, my oncologist, after about the third week, which would have been six weeks into it, I said, why are you always checking my fingernails and my toenails? And she said, well, one of the things that chemo does is it goes after fast reproducing cells. Fast reproducing cells. And your hair, which is one of the reasons you lose your hair and your nails and your toenails and your teeth are fast reproducing cells. So she wanted to make sure I wasn't losing my fingernails. I was like, oh, now I have something else to be worried about. She goes, why do you think I want. They make me. They made me keep. I keep them short anyways because of what I do, but they made me actually keep my nails short.
[00:07:25] So if you are going through chemotherapy, just keep your nails short and just watch for that if you're chemo. If your oncologist isn't, because apparently that's quite a side effect, which I was not aware of. So 2014, I was on, you know, through chemo.
[00:07:41] And then at that point, my doctor, at the end of the chemo, he said, I want you to get some more chemo. It hasn't shrunk enough. It had shrunk 50%.
[00:07:53] I immediately went to my oncologist and I said, I can't do more chemo. I am not doing more chemo.
[00:07:59] I need a new surgeon.
[00:08:01] And I literally wrote him a letter. I said, God bless you. I appreciate for the 15 years you've kept me alive. I am not doing any more chemo and you're fired.
[00:08:10] And I sent him the letter and I got a new doctor because I wasn't going to do any more chemo, and eight rounds was enough.
[00:08:19] So I fired him, got a new surgeon, and in April, that's when we did the surgery.
[00:08:26] We took out the silicone implants and we put in saline implants because the silicone leaked. And if you remember, I, Dr. Bauer, up in Minnesota, I talked about last week, there is a correlation between silicone, thyroid, and breast cancer.
[00:08:44] So I had my silicone taken out and I had saline put in.
[00:08:50] That was the second mastectomy, however, when the doc put them in and then I went and did.
[00:08:55] That was the beginning of April. I went and did Victory of Light again. I don't know what it's about, all this surgery and Victory Black. I went and did Victory Blight, and she hadn't put a drain in me. And by the end of Victory Light, my whole left side side was so swollen from the fluids that wasn't getting drained.
[00:09:12] I went into the hospital on Monday, actually, it was outpatient, and they drained it, but they punctured the new implant, which means this poor left breast had to have another implant put in. And she's like, oh, my God, you didn't sign the dwaber before I started this surgery. She goes, will you sign this, please? It's a good thing. I was a good patient. I said, yes, I'll sign. And I know you didn't mean to puncture it, and you're safe. I'm not going to sue you. I just need a new boob.
[00:09:37] A third one.
[00:09:39] So we go into the hospital, puts it in, and it gets infected.
[00:09:45] I'm lying in the hospital bed and they give me. Now, for those of you who thought Donald Trump was crazy about saying you could put chlorine in your body, I literally read this bag. And In April of 2015, I was getting a chlorine something, something, something put in my body to fight this infection.
[00:10:05] I'm lying in bed.
[00:10:06] It's like, midnight. This nurse comes in, and I said, are you sick? She goes, no, I'm not.
[00:10:11] I'm like, I think you're sick, and you're taking care of me, and I need some pain meds because this is killing me.
[00:10:18] Well, needless to say, I'm looking out the window, and it was at Methodist Hospital. And literally out my window, Methodist has a cross that lights up at night.
[00:10:27] And I could. And that just got me through. I was like, oh, thank you, God. I just stared at that cross all night, cursing the sick nurse who's putting chlorine in my body. And I'm like, you need to give me morphine. She said, I just did. I said, you need to give me some more morphine because this is not working. It was so painful.
[00:10:46] I come home and I come down with a really bad cold, and we're supposed to do a show up in Cleveland. And I'm like, eric, I can't go.
[00:10:54] I cannot. I physically can't go. I just had surgery. I just had a third boob put in. And I'm sick because that nurse was sick, and I'm not going. You're going to do that. Show yourself. And that's where I began to step into taking care of me. Because that's really the first time I said, I cannot do it. I cannot do it. I have to take care of me. Which is. That was the beginning, and that was in April of 2014.
[00:11:18] And thank God Jesus was outside of my window because that faith kept me going through that night. And I was discharged the next day.
[00:11:28] I'm hoping it was the next day. I think it was the next day. I can remember Eric coming in and discharged me.
[00:11:34] And he went to the show, was not happy that I wasn't going to do that. I'm like, dude, I'm sick. I've just had surgery. No, I just had chemo. I just had radiation. Well, I hadn't started the radiation yet. I said, you're doing Michelle.
[00:11:49] So during that time, I really began to take care of me. And I bought a GB4000 machine, which is a Rife machine. And if any of you are familiar with Dr. Rife, he used light frequencies to help heal the body.
[00:12:01] Meanwhile, back in 1954, this man was exiled, and I. He died.
[00:12:06] We think he died.
[00:12:08] Actually, I think he died in Canada.
[00:12:11] And the Rife machines are. They're outlawed.
[00:12:15] So it's a GB4000 machine, but it is a light frequency machine and laser. Ladies and gentlemen, kids, adults, whatever. I spent a lot of hours and I still do in front of that GB4000 machine. Does it work? I don't know. At 27 years later, I'm still here. I. I don't know if any of this stuff works. I can just tell you what I did.
[00:12:34] I got, and by the grace of God, it's been the same each time. And if you understand anything about the pathology of cancers, that's a huge blessing.
[00:12:45] It's the same three times.
[00:12:48] Thank you, God. My God, I. I know I need to learn this lesson because it's like it hasn't moved and I'm really grateful. So like, get your butt down here and help me. That's not exactly how we talk to God.
[00:13:01] I'm a little more verbal with that, but I do talk to God that way. And I'm like, dude, you gotta come down. I need some help down here. So through all of that, I want to let you know, I did the rife machine. I got back seriously on my vitamins. And during this time, there was an individual who has been in our life for a while, but at this point, when he had heard about my second journey with it, to look up polysaccharide K. Because apparently over in the Asian, Australian area of the world, South Pacific, they use polysaccharide K instead of chemotherapy. Well, it took me four months, it took me from April to about September to find out that polysaccharide K is turkey tail mushroom.
[00:13:46] My doctor didn't know it, the hospital pharmacy didn't know it. I searched and searched and somehow, somewhere, polysaccharide K, turkey tail mushrooms, the same thing. I take turkey tail mushroom in every form you can. I've got it in protein drinks, I've got it in coffee, I've got it in elixirs, I've got it in pills.
[00:14:04] I take turkey tail mushroom in my water.
[00:14:07] I take a lot of turkey tail mushroom. I also take a lot of pawpaw. Pawpaw is graviola.
[00:14:14] It's sour soap. It's actually quite delicious if you can get some soursop juice.
[00:14:20] Soursoap is used in the Caribbean instead of chemotherapy.
[00:14:26] I take sour soap when I can get a hold of it in juice.
[00:14:30] But I take a lot of it. I put it. There's a dry powder I put in my smoothies and I take it and I keep looking over there because that's where my pills are, the vitamins.
[00:14:41] And I take that as well. For people who want to know what it is that I do, I take lots of turmeric. I put turmeric in almost everything I eat, on the salad, in the eggs, pretty much as much as I can. I do a lot of mustards because mustard is yellow, because it's turmeric. And I think that's really important for people to know. I do a lot of s activ Now. In the early years, I had a client who cured himself of pancreatic. No, sorry. Of prostate cancer using s ACT. And I remembered that in the early years, I used to just do the elixir because I thought, I am not going to make that. I mean, I was busy back then, but I do make it. Now you can get it in a bag off of Amazon, and it's basically like a burdock root. And it really tastes like you're drinking dirt. And my father always said, if it's good for you, it'll taste awful. And he's absolutely right, because this stuff does taste awesome. It actually is a required taste to some extent. I sort of. My body really likes.
[00:15:43] Builds your immune system. There's also a lot of stuff in there that helps with parasites. And a lot of people have asked me about ivermectin, and I hope my oncologist doesn't listen to this, because I do take ivermectin, and she doesn't know that I do, but I do take ivermectin.
[00:16:02] It's out there. Dr. Newton, I'm guilty. I take ivermectin. A friend of mine who is very scientific did the calculation on how much I have to take, and I can't remember if it's 20 or 40, but it's also up there in the cabinet.
[00:16:16] So I do take ivermectin.
[00:16:18] And the more I read about cancers and understanding that maybe it's a parasite, I don't know.
[00:16:25] But 27 years later, I'm still here. I don't know what works, and I don't know what doesn't work.
[00:16:30] I told you about the turkey tail. I also did resveratrol, and I do resveratrol, which is also a good excuse to drink some red wine, because red wine has resveratrol in it, and that also helps fight cancer. I also do apricot seed, which some people say it's also a B12, but some people say it's been disbanded. And I don't know if it's been disbanded. But you can get it. And if you need more information, I can show you the kind that I have, and it's up over there in the cabinet.
[00:16:57] I do RSO. I learned about RSO 27 years ago. And I said, I am. First of all, I don't know where to get marijuana. Second of all, I am not cooking that thing in my house.
[00:17:06] So through all of this, I had met this wonderful young woman who has cured herself of brain cancer. She was given three months to live. She's now in her fourth year. And hopefully Melissa will actually interview her, will try to get an interview, because she is actually up in the Cleveland area. And she is my inspiration for so much. And I tell you, she is so dedicated to the way she eats. However, she's probably maybe a good 45 years younger than me.
[00:17:37] So I'm like, dude, if I was that young, too, I would be eating everything that. Yes, I'm not that dedicated, but that's a very important part of all of this, is eating good, clean food. And I do try to eat good, clean food. I do have a sweet tooth. I will admit that.
[00:17:53] So she informed me that we can now buy rso and it is legal. And you can get it in Arizona. You can get it in. I don't know if you can get RSO in Ohio. You can get it in Michigan.
[00:18:07] Those two states. I know you can get RSO in. And it's Robert Simpson or Robert Simons or Richard Simons. And I don't want to confuse him. It's not the guy that does the exercise, but this guy cured himself, and the recipe is out. He gives it away free. The recipe. If you want to cook your own. The recipe, you can rso. You can find the recipe. So I do do that, and I do that at night.
[00:18:30] It is.
[00:18:32] It saves me right now some of the one medicine that I'm on, it saves me at night because otherwise I would be able to sleep.
[00:18:40] So Fast forward to 2014-2023 in 2015.
[00:18:49] So we did the radiation. Well, let's talk about the radiation.
[00:18:52] Okay, Two things. One, when I was in the chemo, and you're sitting in with a group of people, and they would always say, time for your poison.
[00:19:03] And I would always say, because you could hear. I mean, you're in a big room. I'm like, that's not poison. That's Jesus's white healing light going into you.
[00:19:12] And I was like that. Do not call that poison. That is not poison. That's Jesus's white light. When my Nurse would come because you're there for like six hours, because they give you all this other stuff so that you won't get sick. They give you this. It's crazy. They give you Benadryl and then they give you something else, and then they give you something else, and then finally, six hours later, they give you the chemo.
[00:19:32] So I was always like, we're praying over that, and that's Jesus's white light. You weep. They knew not to call that poison anywhere near me. And anybody that called their other people's poison, I was like, that's not poison. That's Jesus's white light going into heal us. And we prayed over.
[00:19:50] And I was serious about that because that was Jesus's white light going into my body.
[00:19:55] I also prayed when radiation, they don't give you 28 rounds of radiation anymore.
[00:20:01] When I was at 18, my body went, that's enough, Maria. That's enough. And I'm like, oh. The doctor said 28. That and that. That's a whole nother thing that I go through about being self worth. And those are two programs that I'm running in German new medicine, which we'll talk about next week, about the evaluation and self esteem. And I'm like, The doctor said 28. Okay.
[00:20:22] So when chemotherapy was easier for me, and I'll tell you why, because you get it and you're in a big group radiation, it's just you in that slab there. There is. There's a ton of metal between you and the people anywhere near you in that big room. And you get down on the slab and they line you up and all that good stuff somewhere, you get permanently marked.
[00:20:49] But I'll tell you two things that are really important. One is, and I write about this in the book, it really. When I. I literally would see. Because you can see the machine and it moves, literally would see a white ray of Jesus's love coming through my chest and healing my chest.
[00:21:07] The other thing. And I cannot. So faith was a big thing that carried me through this. It. You haven't figured that out through this.
[00:21:15] However, this is really important. Anybody going through radiation of any kind, and forgive me, I cannot remember the doctor's name. I met her physically. I met her once to mark her. I was the last patient she marked.
[00:21:29] And when I went in to be radiated, a gentleman took over. Another radiologist took over. So I don't remember this woman's name. She was retiring.
[00:21:40] However, she said, I want you to do that. She also was the one that told me to have 4 ounces of red wine every night going through radiation. I was like, okay, just four. She goes, just four. Like, I don't know that I can just do four, but I'll give it a try. I did just four.
[00:21:55] She had me do something that to this day I am extremely grateful for.
[00:22:00] I have no burning, I have no graying on any of my tissue. That was 28 rounds of radiation. And this is what I did. And I've told other people this and they have come back to me and said it has truly helped save them.
[00:22:15] Every night. Every night I would take a cup of water and because my skin is olive, she made me take six. And this is the key. Green tea.
[00:22:26] Caffeinated green tea. Caffeinated green tea. And I said, any special brand? She goes, I don't care what brand you use, just get caffeinated green tea. Apparently there is a sunscreen, a natural sunscreen in green tea. She said you have to steep it in a cup of water overnight and then you spray it on before you go into radiation.
[00:22:50] Well, if one thing you've learned about me through this podcast, type A personality. So I would cook it at night and I got a little spray bottle from Target and put it in the spray bottle. A little, you know, what's that?
[00:23:02] Ah, it's the.
[00:23:04] The funnel. It's a funnel. A little funnel to put it in this little thing. And literally, when I got up in the morning, I sprayed my whole area of the breast.
[00:23:14] And then I would go to radiation and I went to radiation in the morning. And as I was thinking about this, I scheduled my radiation in the morning at 9 o' clock or 8 o', clock, 8:30, 9 o'. Clock. And the reason I did that is, folks, is think about this.
[00:23:29] You have. For me, I have control over my mornings. My day can get this way, this way, this way, this way. The best plans of mice and men. I have notes everywhere. This is what I want to do today. And I might get one thing crossed off because I'm. I am very much trying to live in the moment, so I know I have better control over my mornings. And I knew that I could be in a routine and I wouldn't miss it. So it's the first thing I did every morning. And it really worked for me. Because you're going Monday through Friday.
[00:23:55] So think about that when you're scheduling, when you have to go because you're going by yourself for the most part.
[00:24:00] Somebody might drive you, but you're in that room by yourself and you're not in there long. It's 15 minutes. So I would get there and I would spray it again early.
[00:24:09] Then they would radiate you. And then I'd get out and I'd spray it again. And then I get home and I'd spray it again.
[00:24:16] Doctor only told me to spray it once and then I'd spray it before I went to bed.
[00:24:20] It got to the point about the 18th session because it heats up. I mean, you're getting. It's just getting hot and the heat doesn't go away. So let me tell you what not to do.
[00:24:33] I'm like, oh my God, my skin, it's burning.
[00:24:38] Yours truly puts Vaseline on it. I'm like, okay, it's sunburnt. I'm gonna put Vaseline on it.
[00:24:46] Well, that didn't last very long because, oh my God, Vaseline is petroleum and it clogs up the.
[00:24:55] It seals it. I was like, oh, God, what I wanted it to do. It did the. And if I could not get that Vaseline off my breast, I could not off my chest, I could not get that off fast enough. I was like, okay, that is not a good. That's not what I need to do.
[00:25:10] So I sprayed more of that tea on it because the tea was very soothing. But I will tell you that doctor, God love her. And people to this day will go, oh, you had so and so. I wish I would. I got. I think it began with an R. I think her last name began with an R. Lovely, lovely, lovely woman.
[00:25:27] And they would like, oh, you had Dr. So and so as your radiologist, didn't you? And I was like, yeah. She said, you can tell because all her patients have no damage from the radiation because they put sunscreen on and it's a natural sunscreen, which I'm thinking I should probably use anyway because it's natural. And truly, truly, truly the people I have told have all said to me, thank you for that. So if you take one thing away, anybody that you know that's going through radiation, I don't care where it is on the body, do that now. If you've got light skin, you don't need six bags.
[00:25:59] She wanted me to put six bags in because I'm dark skinned.
[00:26:03] So sort of measure that from being all a battalion to wherever you are in the spectrum of how much caffeinated green tea bags you need to use. But it really. I have no scarring, I have no burning, I have nothing. I will tell you, and they may not tell you this, that for the rest of your Life after you have been radiated someplace, you need to make sure that you keep it covered.
[00:26:30] I have heard of one story by Dr. Veneta, who is my plastic surgeon. He said, yeah, One woman didn't understand what I was telling her and came back. She had third degree burns on her breast because she had exposed it to the sun.
[00:26:43] So you don't want to do that. And I'm still very careful even today. And that's 10 years out that I wear the SPF 50 clothing over that when I'm in the sun.
[00:26:56] So back in 2014, after 2015, the radiation finished in June. She put me on aromatose inhibitor and I was on that for nine months. And I said, I can't do this anymore.
[00:27:09] And she put me on another one. And I was on that for six months and I said, I can't do this anymore.
[00:27:14] So from 2015 to 2021, when I was diagnosed again, I just. I did a lot of my own. I did the. The S E Act, I did the turmeric, I did the turkey tail mushroom. I did the Graviola. I did Shakeology. Saved my ass through chemo. Shakeology, Literally saved my ass through chemo. That and T25. The first four days. I didn't do anything those days. I did. So if you are going through it, try to do normal as best as you can. I was very, very gifted that I had a husband who got to know the banker, got to know the baker, got to know the cleaning, got to know the postman because he took over everything. And all I had to do was heal. So I was very fortunate for those months that I was down. I had nothing to do. And it was just like, can you just drive me around in the car? We just roll down the window and drive around in the car. Because it just really.
[00:28:18] It got tough because it was home during the wintertime, which was good in a way because I was home.
[00:28:25] And there, you know, the medical marijuana helped too, because it really. And he. It. It did it. There was times when it just. It lightened a very heavy moment. And we had Sunday night dates. We would sit in bed, eat popcorn and watch Downton Abbey. And to this day, I love Downton Abbey because it was my friend through all of that.
[00:28:46] It was just. It was.
[00:28:49] You have to find those moments, the things we were talking about last week, the things that give you gratitude. And I was grateful for that. Sunday night, date night on pbs. And it will always be a special part. And one of the things that I will tell you if you're going through chemo and you're going to go through chemo is prepare. Make sure you've got everything that you need before you go through chemo because you're going to need all your energy to heal. And I strongly recommend, as I have gone through this journey and have walked this journey and have met some other people that have done intensive healing.
[00:29:27] If you talk to Hannah, and hopefully Melissa will get a chance to interview her, she will let you know she slept 16 hours a day for the first six months.
[00:29:37] There's another friend that I have gotten to know through German new medicine, and he's had cancer twice. The first time he slept for 16 hours for three months.
[00:29:49] The second time he came down with cancer, he slept for 20 hours for about six months. And one of the things that I have done to heal through is really spend time sleeping. I spent all day in bed yesterday. Literally. You really learn that sleep is really important.
[00:30:09] And whether you have any affliction or not, one of the things I have really learned is to make sure you rest.
[00:30:20] Even God rested on the seventh day, and he's got a lot more energy than we do. God's got a lot more energy and he rested. God rested. He, she rested, the universe rested.
[00:30:32] I think it's really important to rest.
[00:30:35] I don't care if you're as healthy as a horse or you're going through your own physical journey.
[00:30:41] One of the things that I have learned that if you talk to people who have healed through whatever they feel through, they rest.
[00:30:48] And going back to 2015, remember when I said, eric, you're going to do that show because I'm sick and I just had surgery. That's when I began to put down my foot and realize it's not worth burning your life at both ends of the candle because something's going to catch up with you.
[00:31:05] I don't care who you are or what you are or what you think you are, it will eventually catch up with you. So please make sure that you're resting and, you know, eight hours a day.
[00:31:15] I have a tendency now to get a good 10 hours of rest a day. And somebody once told me, you can't catch up on your sleep, so don't ever lose your sleep.
[00:31:26] Because I burnt out my adrenals and I've messed up my thyroid. And according to.
[00:31:31] Because I just said to my endocrinologist, I said, yeah, I'm trying to heal through the thyroid and the adrenals because my adrenals burn, got burnt out because I was burning the candle Both ends, which messed up my thyroid. And she said, you didn't do anything to mess up your. Your thyroid. And I don't know enough to argue with her, but I'm thinking I did mess up on thyroid, so I'm not sure. And as I said last week, Melissa was talking about suffering and, and not having.
[00:31:55] Not letting the suffering dictate how you live. And I want to just say I really do think my attitude of gratitude has helped me get through this in a. In a very, very gracious, gracious way.
[00:32:08] But do not put Vaseline on where you've been radiated, because it's just going to keep the heat in.
[00:32:14] That was. That was not funny.
[00:32:16] That was not funny, but it was sort of funny.
[00:32:19] So through 2015 and through 2017, I. I wrote a book. And I started writing the book. It started out as a journal just to get me through the second time going through it.
[00:32:32] And I sent it to an editor, and the editor said, I don't want to know what you. I don't want to know about your journey. I want to know what you did to heal. So I was like, oh. So I rewrote the book and that's what's published. But it's. It's interesting about looking at the emotional side of the situation, looking at your foods and making sure your self care and doing a lot of internal work. And I began, through 2015, through my second journey, my life had begun to shift, as I said, got a lot more spiritual, did a lot more internal work. During that period of time, I was certified in crystals, I don't know, three or four times with Naisha and Melody and Karen and Naisha again, and also certified, became an ordained minister in the spiritual church.
[00:33:21] Became certified as a psychic and medium for lwissd. Lisa Williams International School for Development, Spiritual Development. Went to Arthur Findlay College. Did a lot of training over there. So my whole life really became, once I got out of the corporate world, very spiritual and accumulated a lot of healers in my life through this period of time, because that's a lot of what I was doing was doing crystal healing work and Reiki and things like that.
[00:33:51] In 2020, March of 2020, yours truly got a Covid shot.
[00:33:59] And I'm not gonna bring this up for argument. I'm just telling you my story.
[00:34:04] Got my Covid shot because we wanted to travel. And when Johnson and Johnson came out, I said, eric, I want the Johnson and Johnson, because Johnson and Johnson. My dad loved Johnson and Johnson. He used to curse them because Johnson and Johnson doesn't ever give me samples, and I recommend them and I love their product, but they don't give out samples. And my father was like, I'm really glad they don't because they keep their prices down for their patients. But he said, but I, as a doctor, I'd like to have their samples because I really like their product. So it was really funny. But so I was like, I'm gonna get Johnson and Johnson. So I got a Johnson Johnson vaccine in March.
[00:34:37] And then that summer, actually through then, I was doing 80 Day Obsession. If any of you know about the 80 Day Obsession on Beachbody, I did 80 Day Obsession and I pulled. I pulled something up here on my clavicle. And I called up and what. And, oh, Eric was gone. And I had this big lump on my chest.
[00:34:57] And I'm like, doc, I don't know what's going on up here.
[00:35:02] So she checked and it was fine. I had pulled some kind of muscle in here, and she. I was like, she goes, take a picture of it. And I went in and she said, it's just from too much exercise and jumping up and down on the floor in the kitchen through. Through all of this.
[00:35:16] So I. And then June of 20, I was having some severe leg pain, and I called her up and I said, well, I texted her and I said, we need to check this. My long bone is hurting and it does this. I'm just sort of compromising and keeping it short. But it had been hurting for a while and enough. So about three months later, I'm like, we need to check this. Because one of the places breast cancer can spread to his bone. And I'm thinking, long bone, I got an issue with my lung bone. She goes, well, go to your regular doctor and get it checked out. I said, doc, with my history of cancer, let's not.
[00:35:51] No, we're gonna check this out first and then I'll go to my regular doctor. She said, okay, come in. I said, literally, I'm in pain at night. And it was. It was my long bone on my right leg.
[00:36:02] So she said, well, let's get an mri. I said, thank you, because we need to make sure we need to rule out that this is bone cancer.
[00:36:08] So she calls me up and she said, and it was my birthday. I said. I said, literally. She called me. It was about 5:00, and we're sitting outside, we were having a glass of wine, enjoying the beautiful sunset. Wasn't sunset yet because it was still 5 o'. Clock. But we were getting ready for the Sunset. It was in July. And I said, doc, I know you're not calling me for my birthday. What's up? She said, well, she said, your MRI lit up with five tumors in your chest.
[00:36:38] I said, okay, now what do we do? She goes, well, I think they need to be biopsied. Come on in and we'll talk about it.
[00:36:43] So I was like, oh, shit.
[00:36:46] So we went in, we talked about it, and they lit up like a Christmas tree. Oh, my God.
[00:36:51] I mean, literally, my chest lit up like a Christmas tree. And I was like, I guess we're going to biopsy these, huh? She goes, yeah, we'll biopsy the one in the chest. I said, can't we just go in and take them out? Can we just. She goes, no, not where they're located. We can't just go in and take them out. And they're ones too close to the heart. Blah, blah, blah. I'm like, just go take them out.
[00:37:08] That's how my solution to everything is. Just go take them out. Just remove them. She goes, no, we really can't do that because of where they're at. So we biopsied it, and it came back. It was not cancer. Now, at this time, from that moment when those lit up, she goes, this isn't what we expected. I said, no, but I'm really grateful for whatever was going on in my leg because I wasn't having any pain up here, but my leg was killing me. It turned out it was my IT band. I love my IT band because it showed all of this in my chest. So I love my IT band. And every once in a while, it still kicks up, but it's like, thank you because you saved my life up here.
[00:37:46] So we biopsied it in June of 20, and it came back. It wasn't cancerous.
[00:37:53] So remember all those healers that I'm working with?
[00:37:57] Well, now they began working with me, and we did some serious. Whether it was on Zoom or whether it was in Face, I did a deep dive, a deep, deep dive while we were watching this with different healers from all over, from California to the Netherlands, from Canada to Florida and everything in between.
[00:38:19] And I'm very grateful for all of them, for all of them, for how they have guided me, for how they have helped me, for. For all of the tears that they've guided me to cry, I cannot thank them enough.
[00:38:33] There's a lot of them to name, so I won't name any of them because I'm very grateful for each and every one of them.
[00:38:39] They know who they are.
[00:38:41] You've helped save my life.
[00:38:43] Because we did some really deep, deep, deep, deep work that I never would have been able to do myself or to be able to even think about doing myself.
[00:38:59] And in the course of one of these, one of them holds up a book and then puts it down.
[00:39:06] And she said, I'm just learning about this, and I'll tell you more about it later.
[00:39:11] And I went, wait, stop.
[00:39:14] In front of this whole Zoom class, I went, stop.
[00:39:17] Go back.
[00:39:18] I need to see that book.
[00:39:20] She holds the book up. It's German New Medicine by Katherine Willow.
[00:39:24] I said, okay, I got it. I'm ordering one.
[00:39:30] So that it came in the mail.
[00:39:36] And I don't think I did. I'm not sure during that time, between 2,020. 23 is.
[00:39:46] I think I wasn't exposed. I didn't get the book until 23. I talked with her. I got the book probably at the end of 22.
[00:39:54] So between 20, with the original diagnosis in 21, just before my nephew's wedding, we biopsied it. I didn't tell them that because it was a wedding, and I didn't want my family at this point, didn't know that I was dealing with another issue because I didn't want to screw up the family wedding.
[00:40:13] But at this point, I knew.
[00:40:15] She said, it's grown. We need to do another biopsy. So I was like, okay. So after the wedding, I had the other biopsy in August, and that's when they went into my back the first time. They did the one in my chest, but they wanted to get the one in the back because the one in the back had grown a little bit.
[00:40:33] It was in my lung, but they went through my back to get it. And it's pretty crazy when they do that because you're awake, and it's like I'm trying to.
[00:40:45] And I can't really see them because my back is to them. My. Yeah, my back is to them. So it came back that it was cancerous. And I started my treatments in September, October of 21, which they put me on Ibrance and Faslodex. And Faslodex is like an aromatose inhibitor, which is that stuff that I told you back in 2014. I was only on for 14. 14 for. For nine months. And then they put me on something different, but the same for six months.
[00:41:13] Yeah.
[00:41:15] The Baslodex shot is an aromatose inhibitor. So crazy me is like, okay, shot.
[00:41:23] We need to be serious about this. We can't, like, say. And this hurts. But for the last four years, I have been on that same medicine. So we're going to get a little bit real here in the end because next week, through all of this, I've touched upon how I came in touch with German new medicine. Because a class I was in, it was a healing class, the instructor held up the book and I was like, I need the name of that book.
[00:41:47] So I read. You'll have to listen to next week's talk about the German new medicine because this gets really cool.
[00:41:56] But I do want to talk to you about some real stuff because it's, it's. This is, this is going to, going to fast forward into next week to bring it to this week.
[00:42:10] Because I sit here with a dilemma because you'll find out that according to German new medicine, I have completely completed the program called breast cancer.
[00:42:21] And it's all because of a bubble in my brain. But you're just going to have to follow next week because it's really freaking cool. It's so cool. I mean, it's really cool. But fast forward next week to this week because I sit here knowing everything that I know that you're going to learn next week. And here's my reality check.
[00:42:40] German new medicine, which I truly how I came to find it, tells me I'm cleared. However, I have two other programs that run in German new medicine. One is self evaluation, one is self esteem, and the other is de evaluation.
[00:42:54] So as I sit before you, I take this little medicine.
[00:42:58] It really is a tiny little pill which is the medicine I was on back in 2014 because now I'm off the basil deck shot. And she's like, okay, we're gonna put you on this. But you've been on this medicine before. And I'm like, it does is it blocks estrogen in the body.
[00:43:16] Well, I don't have. They took out my ovaries.
[00:43:19] Do you know your thyroid produces estrogen? I'm like, you're not taking out my thyroid. Your thyroid. I'm like, where's this estrogen coming from? You've taken out everything that causes creat est. They go, no, your thyroid cruses estrogen. Thank God it does, because this blocks it.
[00:43:34] However, this is my dilemma German new medicine. I'm completely healed. I have had no evidence of disease, folks since March of 2023. Now remember, I'm learning all this boo boo spiritual stuff, why I'm doing all this, you know, GB4000 seak RSO, turmeric, sour soap, eating really healthy, really clean and probably Too clean, because I lost like 13 pounds because I eat so clean. But anyway, right now I've gotten off all my medicine except for she wanted me on this pill. And I said to her, when she put me on this pill in October, I said, doc, you know I'm working to get off this pill too. She said, yeah, I know. Well, my pet. On my last PET scan, no evidence of disease.
[00:44:22] And I met this dilemma because this medicine literally is extremely debilitating.
[00:44:31] And I have been really, really, really, really, really, really good. I've been a really good little patient. And I have not complained about it. Today was the first day I complained about it. Probably out of the clear blue, other than, no, she knows I've complained about this medicine. She goes, you know, you did? Really? I said, I've talked to my body and I've told it it needs to be on this medicine.
[00:44:50] But in my mind, why am I on any medicine if I have no evidence to the disease? And this is literally, literally aging me? This medicine is blocking all the estrogen. Your bones need estrogen, your brain needs estrogen. So if I don't make any sense, we'll blame it on the chemo and this medicine because, yeah, your brain needs estrogen for it to process. And I'm like, oh, that and the chemo, thank you very much. I don't have enough trouble. I don't need any help from the autistic world.
[00:45:19] So I really had him in the dilemma. But this is my whole. The self evaluation and the, the de evaluation and the self esteem come at this point thinking, am I worthy of no evidence of disease? And how really did I really validate this is German new medicine? And I'm like, oh, my God. So I'm at a crossroad. But last night, literally, my poor husband's a saint. I tossed and turned until 5 o' clock this morning. I could not get. And I know, Melissa, you. I was thinking about you last night. I'm like, oh, my God. I was like, eric, I'll go in the other room. And he goes, no, just stay here because that way I can monitor you. And I didn't fall asleep till 5 o' clock this morning. So today I'm right. The doctor. And I said, something's got to be done. I said, I'm taking this medicine every day. I promised you I would, but we got to do something about this.
[00:46:12] And that's my dilemma, and that's a real life dilemma, is dealing with all of the stuff that I've learned. And I'm Here, still taking this pill. And I'm like, why?
[00:46:26] Why?
[00:46:28] And I'll admit there's a fear.
[00:46:31] There's a fear in me.
[00:46:33] And I think I've always had that fear for 27 years. You live with the fear.
[00:46:39] And I'm like, did they program that in me or am I really fearful? And I'm like, Maria, look what you've proven.
[00:46:47] Look what you've proven. No evidence of disease since March of 23.
[00:46:52] And here I am questioning this little pill that I'm on. That's actually, I can't tell you what it's doing to my body. Literally the other day my husband, I got up out of the chair and he's like, Maria, you're moving like an old lady.
[00:47:07] I said, I know it's the medicine. It really. And I'm like, I forget that it's the medicine because I'm like trying to jump downstairs and trying to do yoga and trying to do jumping jacks and push ups just to keep my body moving because it hurts so much. And I'm like, am I helping it or hurting it? I'm not sure. But no, I really do feel better moving.
[00:47:29] So that's my, that's a real dilemma that I'm dealing with. And, and I've reached out to my, to my lady that we'll talk about next week and all about German new medicine. And that's. I've reached out to both the, my, both doctors or the German new medicine doctor and my medical medicine doctor and said, help, help.
[00:47:52] And literally I was at with God last night and I went, I literally put my body. I called in all my guides, Jesus, Mary, Joseph, my dad, St. Christopher, Dr. Johnson, Dr. Stevenson, Pastor David, God.
[00:48:11] And I literally just threw my body on the table and said, everybody, and I'm going to try to do this without crying.
[00:48:20] You want me on the earth plane? You better damn well fix this body because I can't do it anymore. That's how much pain I'm in.
[00:48:27] You fix this body. Because I can't.
[00:48:30] You want me on the earth plane, you fix it. And I just laid down in the pile. I don't know why, but I was in a big bed of rice.
[00:48:39] And I just like, you got to fix it, you got to fix it. So this morning I ended up writing both of those. So that's a real life dilemma with this femara. And as I mentioned to my oncologist and I mentioned, I did mention to my oncologist about some of the pain from the Basil deck shot because I know it's the same medicine.
[00:48:59] Sometimes knowing some stuff isn't so good.
[00:49:02] And you know what they both tell me? Well, that's the number one reason people get off this medicine is because of the pain.
[00:49:07] Like, oh, God.
[00:49:09] Yeah. Well, there I'm about to be another patient off this. So there we are. And just next week we'll tell you all about the fun stuff about German new medicine. Because it's crazy. I cannot make this up. So really I tried to make it so that you can see the chronological story and how it develops. Just remember that from 2020 to 2021, when I started the medicine, I was deep, deep, deep from the time this lit up, deep, deep, deep into doing self emotional healing and doing all the other medical stuff too. But I'm just saying.
[00:49:50] So thank you for listening to the third podcast. And the fourth podcast is going to be crazy fun. You can't. I. It's crazy fun.
[00:50:01] I think it's crazy fun.
[00:50:04] Well, I'm excited for it. Yeah. Thank you.
[00:50:08] Well, thank you for listening, everybody. And we will see you guys all next episode.
[00:50:16] Good night.
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