Episode Transcript
[00:00:00] Foreign to the Healers Corner podcast with your hosts, Melissa Wiles and Maria Cerna.
[00:00:13] They are coming to hear your story because you are joining us and you have, you are honoring and blessing us with your journey.
[00:00:22] This is going to be a four parter, everybody, but you are going to love every bit of it.
[00:00:28] And you know, Maria Celeste, you've had a very interesting journey in life and you have battled a major health issue. What is it, three times now. Yeah.
[00:00:44] Yep, yep. Yes. And, and a lot of people have asked me because I have done Wise Woman Speaks and have talked a little bit about it because it's not very comfortable for me to talk about myself yet. Throughout the journey and through different women that I have met, people ask me and people ask me and people ask me and I've written a book and we have a big announcement at the end to share.
[00:01:14] So I was like, I needed somebody I trusted. I was like, melissa, will you host this for me? You know, because people want, and I don't understand all the technology and I didn't want to have to learn it because I'm an old folks and I've gotten. I don't want to do that. And I was, I just, I trust and adore you, Melissa and Maria and I just. So it's an honor to be able to do this with the two of you and your audience to help people. Hopefully I can give some information.
[00:01:45] My purpose in doing this is not to tell you to do the medical. It's not to tell you not to do the medical. It's not to tell you to do the, the crazy stuff that I do. I'm simply here because people have asked me, will you please share your journey? Will you please share your journey? And so.
[00:02:09] I'm here to share my journey and, and I pray that I can do that and serve God well and my family well and your audience well. But I have to say humbly and graciously thank you to both of you and especially to Melissa for hosting this and honoring me by allowing me to speak through her podcast. And we've put it into four, and this first one, because of the journey and because of where the journey has brought me and what I have learned through this journey, it's very important for the audience to understand my background because through all of this, you will find that I have validated Dr. Hammer's work. I did not find it.
[00:02:55] My journey and my healing journey, both medical and what I'll call metaphysical, the spiritual, the physical and the emotional journey, all coming together, validated what doctors Hammer's work did, which unfortunately, he was persecuted for it and just like Dr. Reif.
[00:03:17] So I will share all of that with you, and it's a great honor and a pleasure to do that. So if you've got questions as we go along, I know Melissa is going to monitor that. Maria is going to monitor it for us, and feel free to ask questions as I go along and share all of this with you. But it's really important for you, I think, to understand the whole journey and where I unwound it to get to where my true no evidence of disease. I have been no evidence of disease since March of 23.
[00:03:53] Thank you.
[00:03:55] Thank you, thank you. So it's an honor and a pleasure to be here. So with all of that said, I will start and let you know that as Melissa said, I've been in this journey for 27 years. I have been very, very blessed. If you understand anything about cancers, each and I don't like to even use that word, as my brother says. Are you sure you had cancer? I don't know what I had. I can just tell you the journey I've been on, because I don't know, it's been labeled. I don't like labels, but I've been labeled with breast cancer and metastatic breast cancer. So here we are, and I'll share it with you. And hopefully, somewhere along the line, when this first happened to me, I said, God, if I have to go through this, let me help other people go through their journey.
[00:04:43] So here we go. Each time I've been diagnosed, it's been exactly the same. It didn't mutate, it didn't change. And I am so grateful to God because if you understand cancer, my cancer was the same each time.
[00:04:59] It's not my cancer.
[00:05:00] The tumors had it, the tumor's gone. But it was the same each time, which is fabulous because it was. And I had the most treatable kind. So thank you. Thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you.
[00:05:13] So let me begin with my family background, because the family background is important to understand as you follow me through the next or follow us through the next four, the next three, you need to understand and understanding German new medicine, where the initial isolated incident happened that caused the breast cancer.
[00:05:36] So my family background, I want to make sure that you understand this is not advice to do the medical. It's not advice not to do the medical. It's not advice to do what I've done, and it's not advice not to do what I've done. It's simply telling you my journey. I was born on July 28, 1954. I was born to a man who was a world renowned pediatrician.
[00:05:59] Thus he was my doctor.
[00:06:02] And when this little soul of mine came out of my mom's womb, who I was the fifth child in a very male dominated Italian household.
[00:06:11] Apparently I was quite jaundiced. So my father immediately whisked me away from my mom and put me in an incubator. Well, 71 years ago, when you're in an incubator, they didn't touch you. Which explains today why I have to have all kinds of blankets on me when I sleep, even if it's 110 degrees outside, I have to have.
[00:06:30] Because the first 18 months of my life I was covered with blankets. And the only people that were allowed to touch me were my parents or the nurses at the beginning. And my family's not sure whether I was in an incubator for three, three weeks or three months.
[00:06:46] So somewhere in there. But my sisters do tell me that for 18 months nobody could, nobody, my parents wouldn't let anybody touch me because.
[00:06:54] Because I was a sickly kid and I didn't understand. Now you have to understand, this is a little baby soul, okay? I'm not talking about the adult in me, I'm talking about the little baby soul. And that's important to understand that because of the validation that I've come to learn about German new medicine. So this little baby soul was whisked away from the people that she was supposed to come into to trust.
[00:07:20] And this little baby soul is put in an incubator and maybe, I don't know, periodically throughout the day, they might have changed my diaper, I don't know. So this little baby soul had to rely on herself.
[00:07:36] And it's probably why I never cried much as a child because it was. Nobody listened to me. It was like nobody listened to me. So I'm just. I had to be totally self reliant and totally independent. Of course I came in as a Leo, so it all fits with that.
[00:07:53] And so I learned to really rely on my family. Asked me, why do you have so much faith? I really think it's 18 months of sitting in isolation that you learn to rely on yourself and faith. And the only person I could talk to was God. And, and I actually have a picture here. When I was two years old, I was sitting in. At this point, I was out and about in my family and I was sitting. I was 18 months and it was Christmas time and I was in my Dr. Denton's, which I loved till I was about the age of seven in front of the creche and the creche is the baby scene with baby Jesus and Mary and Joseph and the three wise men and the little drummer boy.
[00:08:42] And my mom and my brother walk in and said, what are you doing? And, and I said, I'm reading to baby Jesus and my mom and my brother who happened, My brother was the one that took that picture, my brother Rick. They said, you can't read. And I said, I'm putting the picture in this little, little shitty little kid. I'm putting the picture in my head and I'm sending it to baby Jesus.
[00:09:03] And besides, this isn't how it happened.
[00:09:07] And then they just looked at me like I was weird. And they walked out of the room after they shot the picture and I turned to baby Jesus and I said, I'm sorry, they don't believe me, but I'll continue telling this story. And I know you know, and I know that this isn't how it happened, but I'll tell you what we think about your story.
[00:09:22] So I was born this crazy and it's really been very fun. It's been very, very, very, very fun.
[00:09:31] So time goes on.
[00:09:34] There's. There's eight children in my family, very male dominated family. My mother was an amazing wife, an amazing wife. We learned a great. All of the women in my house really were very good wives for the most part because my mother was a tremendous wife. She was a great mother in terms of educating us and dressing us and feeding us emotionally.
[00:09:57] There was eight of us. She emotionally couldn't be present for us. And I understand all of that. However, in my little mind, this little baby was taken from their parents.
[00:10:08] And I thought I wasn't wanted.
[00:10:11] This little baby soul thought, oh my God, I've been abandoned. The people that I came in to trust me have whisked me away and put me in an incubator.
[00:10:22] The man I was supposed to trust, my dad. Which is probably why I have real trust issues. And Eric will tell you that because.
[00:10:30] And the reason I married him is because I do trust him.
[00:10:35] That my dad whisked me away from my mom and put me in an incubator. I didn't think I was loved, I didn't think I was wanted, and I thought I was abandoned. So underlying all of that in a very male dominated household explains why I am a type A personality.
[00:10:55] Because if they said, maria, do something, I would go overboard and do it 150% because I needed to be loved, I needed to be safe. I needed to be. I didn't want to be abandoned again. I didn't want to be abandoned again.
[00:11:10] And that is a really underlying cause in terms of understanding how I got to heal.
[00:11:20] However, you know, you're going along, I didn't know this. You know, I'm captain of my cheerleading. I'm, you know, head of. I was given an award in high school for home economics and thought it was going to be a home economics, but now I just love to cook, love to sell, and love to do things around the house and all of that. I was very, very driven. You know, I graduated top of my class, mba, graduated cum laude, cum laude from bc.
[00:11:50] Very, very driven. And I was very successful in my career as one of the top women.
[00:11:55] There was three of us. That was one month she'd be the top woman, not next month me, and the next month there was another woman. There was three of us very successful brokers in the state of Indiana.
[00:12:07] So I was very driven and very successful. But through all of that, I never had a sense. And I'm going to be really vulnerable and open with you because I think it's really important for any of you journeying through cancer to really take a deep look and understand that cancer is a wake up call. It is not a death sentence, folks. This is not a death sentence.
[00:12:36] Through all of that, I.
[00:12:39] No matter how much I achieved, I never felt worthy. I never felt evaluation. I never.
[00:12:46] There were always things that I would always, you know, I put myself down, oh, I could have done better. And granted, and it's really important for you moms and dads out there, we had parents. And I talk about this with my family. No matter what we did in our family, it was always, what could you do better? How could you do that better? How could you do that better? How could you do that better? So in my world, I was never good enough.
[00:13:13] And I don't blame my parents. I am grateful for everything. I had a wonderful childhood.
[00:13:21] I had two homes. I didn't have. My parents had two homes. I summered on Cape Cod from the day after school got out, maybe two days after school got out to two days before school started.
[00:13:35] Wonderful education, you know, college was paid for and a crazy, wonderful, loving family. I mean, you walked into the, the Christmas or walk into the family room at Christmas time, and you literally could not walk into the room. Now granted, there were gifts for 10 people in there, but there were literally gifts. So I am very, very grateful for all of that. However, it was, what could you do better? What could you do better? What could you do better? What could you do better? And there was one time in my life which stuck out as I went through and looked back on it, that was very, very important. I rarely asked for things because you got to remember, I was a little baby. I was like, I didn't want to disturb the nest because they might throw me away again.
[00:14:23] So I never asked for things in my family. I was not one that asked for things until it really. Until you pushed me. There were times when it was like, dad, you bought cars for the boys. You bought skis for the boys. I want a typewriter for school.
[00:14:39] So my dad went out and bought me a typewriter. So I was like, I'm just asking for a typewriter. Can I have a typewriter?
[00:14:45] So I got a typewriter.
[00:14:47] So with all of that, in terms of the way that I directed, my life was always about. I didn't want to be abandoned.
[00:14:58] So I never asked for much because I didn't want them to, like, abandon me. And yet I had a wonderful childhood.
[00:15:06] My parents, truly, I would not give up my childhood for anything. And there was a woman in my life just recently, and she's very, very close with me. She. She lives in another country, but she is very much like a sister. And, Denise, if you're on here, I have to thank you, because at one point through my healing journey, and I was sharing with her about the fact that, oh, my God, I thought I was abandoned as a child. I thought I wasn't wanted. I thought I wasn't loved. I was immediately within minutes of me being born because apparently I was jaundiced, which is interesting. If you study German new medicine and study about jaundice babies, we'll get into all of that.
[00:15:47] That she said to me. She said. And I was immediately put in an incubator. So that baby soul, as I said, oh, my God, I'm not wanted.
[00:16:00] And she said to me something that was extremely healing. So my message to all of you out there, whether you have cancer or not, is to really be aware of the messages that God sends to you and the symbols and the prompts that God gives you. Pay attention to them. That the universe gives you. That great white Guido gives you. Whatever you call your higher self, your higher source, I call it God gives to you. She said to me, and Denise, I don't know that I ever told you this. So if you're listening, she said to me, maria, your parents, it's gonna make me Cry. Your parents did what they did because they loved you and they were afraid.
[00:16:44] Denise had the wonderful advantage of coming home with me one time from Turkey and she got to meet my family so she understands the love that is in that family. But I never saw that. I never, I never in my mind thought that. And this was just. She mentioned this to me probably 18 months ago.
[00:17:07] And it was a very important part of what kicked in to help me understand the total healing aspect of making that shift. That that little baby thought she was abandoned. She thought she wasn't loved, thought she wasn't wanted to.
[00:17:30] Your parents did this. Now remember my pediatrician was my father who in my little baby mind ripped me away from the woman that was supposed to love me, my mother, and put me in a friggin incubator. It's not really what I want to say because God's told me I need to clean up my language. And I'm really trying hard.
[00:17:49] It's not easy, but I'm doing, I'm trying.
[00:17:53] So that's important to understand that for me. That was very important for me. And it was like it shifted. I literally felt the shift in my body thinking, oh my God, she's absolutely right. And then I began to see every time my mother had a wonderful, wonderful, wonderful, wonderful friend, Auntie Helen. She was like a, she was like a, she was an aunt, but she was my mother's best friend and she happened to be, she ran a lab and it happened to be a blood lab. So every month when we would go to Rhode island to see my grandmother, she would stop by Auntie Helen's in the lab. Didn't matter what time of day it was or what day it was. Auntie Helen would open up the lab and test my blood.
[00:18:37] Oh my God. And I'm like, why am I doing this? But I now see as an adult, my mother was petrified because she gave birth to what was.
[00:18:48] Because a world renowned pediatrician said, oh my God, this child's sick, we need to take care of her. So my mother panicked and I was whisked away. But every, I see all of the stuff that she did now as an adult because she did love me.
[00:19:07] So fast forward to.
[00:19:14] Today in terms of knowing where I'm at and understanding all of what has happened, all of what I have come through and doing through that and understanding and working with different, different healers and everything has brought me to being able to heal some really, really deep seated abandonment issues, unwanted issues, not feeling worthy, self esteem issues.
[00:19:47] I'm still working on a lot of those issues. But because I have worked on those issues, I'll tell you, folks, it's not easy. It is not easy. I have many journals downstairs that I've journaled this stuff, and I'll share with you over the course of this. This class, the books that I've used to journal and how I've done it and the prompts that I've used to get me to where I can tell you that I have no evidence of disease. But it really is important to have an attitude of gratitude through all of this. And, you know, I may have made this journey. People say, my God, you make it look easy.
[00:20:27] It's not easy. It's not easy.
[00:20:30] But it's been easy because of the attitude of gratitude, because of friends like Melissa and friends like Maria and my husband and my family and my doctors and my healers, and my faith and my faith in God has. Has carried me through a lot.
[00:20:46] So in continuing to tell you my story and some of the traumas that I've gone through, many of you may know that I was in Turkey when the World Trade Towers went down. And I had just come back to America when the earthquake hit the town I was living in. And a lot of my Turkish friends got. We're following you wherever you go, because that's been in an amazing journey. And I literally had landed. I studied with the Dalai Lama, and I had literally landed in the country. And my brother got a call from a dear, dear family friend and said, where's your sister?
[00:21:19] And he said, jimmy, she just landed back in America. He said, good, because there's been a terrible earthquake where she lives. It was devastating. And it's really funny because I always said to God, because when a lorry went by, which is a truck, Lori would go buy my apartment in Turkey, the building would shake. And every time I said to God, I do not want to be here if there's an earthquake.
[00:21:42] I don't, because the building would shake. And it was just the truck. I said, I don't want to be here. Okay. So I'm being prompted to share this amazing story because this is a really cool story.
[00:21:52] Does it have anything to do with the cancer journey? No, but it has to do with understanding as you go through this journey, to be aware as you go through life, whether your life journey has cancer in it or not. It's important to always look for the symbols, because how I came to German new medicine was there was a symbol.
[00:22:13] So this particular symbol was.
[00:22:19] I always said to God, like, I said, I don't want to be in this building. If there's an earthquake in Turkey, and Turkey's sort of like Los Angeles, there's a major fault that runs through it.
[00:22:28] And I was. Had landed in America, and there was an earthquake. And so I didn't know what I was going to go back to. I stayed in America for 10 days and was here, and I was like, I don't know what I'm going back to. And my friends were like, it's devastated. That's. And it was girljack. And they lost thousands and thousands and thousands of people. So much so that the ocean that. Well, the. The harbor, which is where their military, the Turkish military was headquartered, expanded 2ft, and they lost some ships. They don't know where the ships went.
[00:23:02] That's how bad this earthquake was. So when I got to my building, people were like, you're actually going to go up there?
[00:23:09] I lived on the fourth floor. I said, yeah, I got to go see what happened to the apartment. The building was still standing. A lot of buildings weren't, but this building was still standing.
[00:23:18] So I.
[00:23:19] This is really funny. When I think about what I crawled over and what I exposed myself to, it was pretty scary. They go, you cannot sleep in that building at night. I said, I know, but I have to go see the apartment. I have to go see the apartment. So I'm crawling, literally crawling over bricks to get to my apartment door.
[00:23:36] And I didn't think to bring it. It's downstairs.
[00:23:38] And I literally open up the door, and I literally either have to step on it, a step over it. There is a plaque that one of my Turkish friends gave me of the blessed Mother and baby Jesus. Literally sitting a little perpendicular as I walk in. And I just. I looked at it. It had cracked because it fallen off the wall. And I was like, wow.
[00:24:09] Everything in the apartment was, like, intact other than some bowls had fallen out of the cabinet and in my bathroom.
[00:24:26] Because I type A personality. The day before I was leaving Turkey, I'm like, I have to get this fixed. I have to get this fixed. There was a glass plate over my sink that I had on my cosmetics on and my creams for this face.
[00:24:40] I had to get it fixed. I couldn't get it fixed when I got home. I had to get it fixed before I left.
[00:24:46] Well, of course, all the creams fell down into the sink and made a mess, and I just laughed.
[00:24:52] Oh, God. If I hadn't have gotten that fixed, I wouldn't have lost all my creams. So for those of you who are type A personality, sometimes you just let things go.
[00:25:02] And the sign was this beautiful sign. And nothing else in my apartment was disturbed. I mean, everything in the refrigerator was out because the electricity didn't work.
[00:25:13] But for the most part, other than that shelf that I fixed and the one dish that had fallen. And the woman's like, I don't know. That dish whose apartment I was in, she goes, I. I said, this dish broke. She goes, I don't know what dish that is.
[00:25:25] And my neighbor. There was two apartments. My door opened this way, and the other neighbors opened up this way. And she's. She was in the neighborhood, and she's like, how's your apartment? I said, it's fine. I said, I didn't really lose anything other than my cosmetics because I was insistent on fixing that glass plate. But the one sign fell off. And it's fine. It's just a little cracked in the end because when it hit, it smashed the edge of it. I'll try to remember to bring it up next week because I have kept it. She said, oh, Maria. She goes, now remind. We were on the same floor, right? We're on the same floor.
[00:26:03] She said, come and look at my apartment.
[00:26:07] It. Have you ever seen National Lampoons that. Where they have the food fight in the. I don't know what.
[00:26:14] John Belushi's in it, and they have a food fight. There's ketchup on the walls. The drapery is pulled out. The cushions are all thrown around the kitchen. Everything in the kitchen is all over the kitchen. Literally. There's ketchup and mustard on the wall. And she's like, look at what happened to my apartment. The people below me, I had just visited with them. They had beautiful crystal and china that had been passed down for centuries in their family because turkey is a lot older than here.
[00:26:43] Beautiful. Beautiful. And all destroyed. And people were, like, from the neighborhood coming to look at my apartment because nothing was disturbed in it other than that glass plate and this one plate that the woman whose apartment, it came from somewhere, and I don't know where it was, but nothing happened. Now, the building, literally the two buildings, my apartment building, the next apartment building was now about this far apart. And I was like, oh. So I took a can and I put it on the floor, and it literally rolled. And there. People were like, you cannot stay in that apartment at night. That's not a safe apartment. You have to come sleep. So I didn't stay in the apartment, but it was really interesting. The whole neighborhood knew that Maria's apartment was not destroyed in this earthquake. So all my life, obviously I told you when I was 18 months, I'm talking to baby Jesus because I'm putting pictures in my head and I'm like, he knows what's going on. My family thinks I'm crazy. And I'm like, jesus, I'm sorry that they don't believe me, but I know you believe me, and this isn't how it happened. We both know it didn't happen this way because I don't take the census in the wintertime.
[00:27:47] And if you understand pagan, it was pagan became Christianity, that became Islam. And if you're ever in Turkey, there was a pagan site that then became Christian site that's now Islam, that's now a museum. So there you go.
[00:27:58] And in the pagan world, they wanted us to become Christians. So what did they do? They, okay, well, we're going to change it. So it's the light of Christ come at Christmas time. And I don't say that sacrilegiously. I say it so we can all wake up to the truth that Jesus came as light. And it's just in terms of what they needed to do that. And that light is all within all of us. He came to teach us that lights within all of us. So it's really important to have whatever faith that is. But if I try to get you to come to my faith, I'm pushing you. I may be pushing you away from your faith, and I don't want to do that. I don't want to do that. I want to encourage you to have your faith, to have your ability to get up in the day and whatever it takes, whatever it takes for you to do what you need to do for you and to be able to share that light that's within you to everybody else, the thing that that does. And I want all of you to think you've been given the diagnosis, you've got four to ten years to live. Because I'll tell you what it does. It makes you be very present, very, very present to enjoy the core moments, the core memories, the core importance of the people in your life. All of that stuff doesn't matter when you, like, this may be the very last day I'm on the Earth plane.
[00:29:22] So I'm telling you, you know how you get all these things on your Facebook page or your Instagram page, or somebody says, don't save the good jewelry, don't save the china, don't save the crystal. My crystal's right there. And it Comes out at least once a week, if not every night. I use my mother's china every day.
[00:29:40] Use the good stuff.
[00:29:42] Use the good stuff. What are you saving it for? You may not be here tomorrow. And I am so grateful that that diagnosis was given to me because it shifted my reality. Instead of going, I'll do it next year. No, I may not have tomorrow.
[00:30:00] None of us may have tomorrow. And yes, I have no evidence of the visa, and I don't. I get all that. However, none of us get out of this alive. So what are you doing with your life? And that is one of the things that I pray that if you are given a cancer wake up call, that you enjoy it. And for those of you who aren't given a wake up call, know that this is your wake up call, because you don't want that kind of wake up call to get your ass in gear of living your life. We chose to come here. Isn't that crazy? I'm like, okay, God, I need to read the fine print. And I am not raising my hand in school up there again, because the last time I did, I got earth duty. And this is this. This has not been an easy journey. God, this has not been easy. Hello, I'm five four, and I've got eight feet of scars on me.
[00:30:51] Plastic surgery does not mean you won't have scars.
[00:30:54] I'm living proof.
[00:30:56] Thank God you can't see any of them. And I have two tattoos, and you can't see those either. And I'm not showing them to you. And anybody tells you that tattoos don't hurt, they're lying. Tattoos hurt. I don't care. They hurt. And she says to me, she goes, you're having tattoos for medical reasons. I can give you novocaine. And I looked at her And I said, there's 300, 000 women a year that don't get this far, keep putting the ink in. And you know what's really sad? Those. This is getting really intimate. The ink disappeared, and they are not tattooing. I have tattoo. They tattoo the nipples in. Dr. Vetta was a hoot. He's like, you got to get the nipples tattooed in. I'm going, no, no. He goes, you have to get the nipples tattooed. I go, no, no, no. He goes, you have to finish the product. I'm going, no, no, no, no, no.
[00:31:42] So those of you who have had mastectomies, you might want to get your nipples tattooed in, because it really does. It was a very minor shift that took place. And I'm sitting There. And I'm thinking the girl, Dr. Veneta didn't tattoo the. Tattoo the urethra. And I think it's called the reason.
[00:31:59] You could be small. Yes, you could be. Seriously. No, you know, I mean, I could be hit by a bus.
[00:32:08] You can be. Literally. I don't know who wrote that, but you're absolutely right. You don't know when the God, when the Lord's going to call you home. So live each day to its fullest as best as you can. And that is, there's a whole. I will get all into the detail about the specifics, but it's important for you to understand that this is that I, you know, I picked myself up and I moved to Turkey and I had people at my church get literally in my face, said, you can't do that.
[00:32:36] And I went, I am, I'm leaving tomorrow. I think I was actually leaving a few days later. And one of the things that I really encourage you to do is to live in your integrity and to live in your truth. Because when you live in your integrity and you live in your truth, you make everybody else responsible for their integrity and their truth. And it's really funny to watch them not be able to stand in it. I'm sorry, it's a funny little game I play because it's not a game that I play.
[00:33:04] But it's funny to watch people. When you stand in your truth and you stand in your integrity, people get uncomfortable because you're telling them to stand in their integrity and stand in their truth. And you know what? When I stand before God, I hope I hear him say thank you for the souls you saved. And one of those is mine, I hope.
[00:33:23] But really allow yourself to be the best version of you that you can be today.
[00:33:31] Today.
[00:33:32] Use that good perfume, use that good shampoo, use those good clothes. So live the best life you can live with what you have been afforded and the way in you've been afforded. And to appreciate an attitude of gratitude really brings you more gratitude. Those aren't just goofy affirmations out there. That is sincere way to live. And by the grace of God, cancer has woken me up. I will tell you, I really have never been happier. I've never been more peaceful. I've never been more joyful. I've never been more centered.
[00:34:08] Now, my family might argue with you, my really close friends might argue with you, but I. There's a big, big shift in me because of the fact that I have had the wake up call that you don't get out of this alive.
[00:34:22] You don't get out of this alive. So what are you waiting for? What are you waiting for?
[00:34:27] So how and when did you. Were you able to get into your gratitude in your diagnosis journey? Was that after the first, second, or third, or even like right before?
[00:34:44] So I was instilled with gratitude a very young age. My father would come home and talk about the children that he took care of. And I remember one night he came home and he said that I.
[00:34:57] There was a baby that was the size of my hand today, you know, and he put the fork in his hand and he said, I took care of a child this, this, this today. So you appreciate the fact that you can play field talking. You appreciate the fact that you can play football? Because I see a lot of people that can't.
[00:35:14] So everything that we did, it was always an underlying emotion of being grateful for the gifts that we got, for the meals that we had, for the birthdays that we had, for the family we grew up in, for the arguments that we had for whatever it was. There was always an attitude of gratitude.
[00:35:30] And that was instilled way before the cancer that was instilled in my family. And they may not have been emotionally there for us when we emotionally needed to be, because my parents taught us to think.
[00:35:43] They didn't teach us to feel. And the cancer journey is teaching me to feel rather than to think and to put the two together. But we were. Everything was think, think, think. It wasn't about how you feel, was, what do you think? Which is interesting. And we were. We were taught to think gratitude. So I'm very grateful for my parents that they taught us to be grateful. So it.
[00:36:06] I think the cancer journey brings it to the present. About.
[00:36:12] I. When I wake up in the morning, I'm like, oh, I'm here for another day. What trouble can I cause?
[00:36:20] Instead of like, oh, I'm here another day, you know, and there's days when I'm depressed. There's days when it's like, I don't get so depressed anymore. But, you know, in the early years, you know, cancer diagnosis isn't easy. Life's not easy. Hello? Life's not easy.
[00:36:37] Yes. Well, thank you for sharing the first part of your journey with us, and I'm looking forward to next week.
[00:36:44] Yep. We have three more parts coming for your. Your wonderful journey. And thank you again for sharing it with us. And open and honest and vulnerable. This is. This is a hard topic. Cancer is a big thing to talk about. It's an emotional journey, and I'M sure in upcoming episodes, there might be a little heartstrings and leaking of the face happening. That's why I had the Kleenex closed tonight. But, yeah, next week we will go through my first experience of the diagnosis and what I went through so that those of you who get the first diagnosis, I will explain everything in terms of the details so that you can understand the good, the bad, the ugly, and everything in between.
[00:37:37] So hopefully, by the grace of God, it makes your journey easier and makes your life happier and freer and we don't carry around all this baggage.
[00:37:48] Right? Yes.
[00:37:50] Well, thank you for joining, everybody, and we hope you, too.
[00:37:54] This next Tuesday for the next episode. And Maria's journey continues with us. Yeah. Thank you.
[00:38:02] Bye, guys.
[00:38:04] Bye.
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